It’s amazing what affect environment can have on a person’s
psyche. I recently spent a week back in
the realms of family and old friends in my hometown and it was gratifyingly refreshing. The instant I stepped off the plane and back
into a past life I felt comfortable.
Confident. Sane. I have struggled with my new surroundings of
Darwin for a few weeks since leaving my job and searching for a different direction. So many questions and doubts have swirled
around me. What to do from here? Am I going to find something to keep me happy
in Darwin? Should we have stayed in New Zealand? Why won’t it rain when they say it will? I
feel a little dazed with the amount of uncertainty that I am currently experiencing. Having time off to do what I want when I want
sounds great, but the reality is far different.
Carrying this sense of uncertainty around saps the energy and motivation
out of me. I feel very little
inspiration to spend time doing the things I love –writing, mosaics,
photography – and the heat destroys any enthusiasm to enjoy any outdoor activities
– walking, gardening, bird watching.
Returning to cooler climes and friendly faces gave me feelings of delight
and relief. Being in a place that felt familiar and welcoming gave me
inspiration and foresight and a new found sense of clarity. I think I know what needs to happen next.
When you don’t give up, you can not fail.
